Agastache

Moment By Moment

Monday, October 29, 2007

Lost In Time














My love, my lips still for you...
My heart cries and the suffering continues...
Hurtful moments we could no longer undo...
My love, I could not believe... you and I were through...

I regret for not believing you...
And I blame the world for me leaving you...
Confused and lost with love as we...
My love, please don't forget to think of me...

Together again, we will never be...
The course of our lives changed instantly...
But my love please, promise me...
Try once in a while to remember me...

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Only In A Dream














My heart reached the darkness night,
And your kindness made everything bright,

I catched the falling stars one by one,
And forever showered with glitters on your shrine,

I spread my arms wide open,
And I catched your heart and the falling heaven,

I turned around once again,
Said goodbye to a world with no pain...

As far as my eyes could see...
I followed you...as where my destiny should be...

Friday, October 26, 2007

The Silence














I searched far and near,
Tried to find what my heart hears,
I relived life over and over,
Felt the lost of him year after year...

My tears answered all the pain,
And the soft whispers voice often came,
As I smiled the world of dreams,
I repainted the faded portrait of him...

As I waited time to come by,
I watched season after season on fire,
As I looked up high in the dark...dark sky,
Beyond the moon...beyond the stars...is a place for he and I...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

The Patterns and You














Colors...more colors,
Shapes...more shapes,
Numbers after numbers,
Must all I significantly have to remember...?

The colors I see,
The shapes around me,
The numbers I counted endlessly,
What is this means for me...what should it be...?

The colors is not what see,
The shapes do not dances in perfect harmony,
The numbers speaks so silently,
Am I witnessing the creation of infinity...?

Hatred and love; Life and death,
Mathematically all should relates,
The balance of patterns...
Is it the birth of creation and destruction...?

Probably, I see no colors...
Perhaps, I touch no shapes...
Maybe, I speaks no numbers...
Except I see, touch and speak patterns...patterns after patterns...

Why don't you come with me...
I will take you where my heart will be,
Why are you so afraid of me?
Is it because I think differently...?

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Jelousy














Ready to go?
What? You are waiting for who?
Oh, is he coming too?
I thought it's just us two?
What? But how about you?
You did not tell me you have something to do?
So, he and I are going without you?

Why are you pushing us apart?
Did you already changed your heart?
Why are you so difficult?
Your actions...I am truely hurt...
Do you think I am right for him?
You think he will give me everything,
My love, you are mistaken. No matter what, I am not leaving..

Thursday, October 18, 2007

I Always With You














White flowers for you,
Also, a short poem too,
Each and every words,
It opens both of our world...

With wild flowers grow,
With the wind's soft gentle blow,
And with the warm of sun,
Reassures me that you never been gone...

Your eyes belongs to the sky,
But the heaven is for you and I,
Even seperated by time,
Your love never leave me behind...

I am standing below your feet...
As my face bear life's defeat,
Without you I struggle alone to live,
Unable to touch you...unable to kiss you again is the most I hate...

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Gone In A Split Moment














The beautiful language,
The amazing and breathtaking place,
The unrecognized words,
In my heart poured,
Although, all around was a secret...
To everything around, love I felt...

It was your gentle voice,
And your smile I loved the most,
It was your eyes unraveled all,
And your short words broke my heart's brick wall,
Was everything really there?
Were you and what I felt for you real?

Monday, October 15, 2007

His Best Friend














Why must be you,
Oh, my nightmare came true,
How I am going to explain to him,
That you are often in my dream...

Telling him everything,
He will not be forgiving,
No one to be blamed but me,
Absolutely, he will be angry...

Why must you the one,
Who touches my heart so warm,
Who gives love willingly,
Oh, who should I choose you or he?

Sunday, October 14, 2007

What If














I will count one by one,
of all the stars up in heaven,
I will then pick the brightest one,
On your perfect face will it shine,
I will wakeup the sleepy moon,
Even in the middle of warm afternoon,
To guide you towards the calm blue sea,
A place where you and I should be,
Then and only then will I sure find...
Your lost heart that should be mine...

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Behind the Game














What? Me, psychic?
Hmmm...let me think,
Nope! Another insane question...?
What? Do I have ambition?
No, I just take life as it comes,
Good or bad I am willing to welcome...

How about you? Are you psychic?
You are? Then, guess what I am going to ask next,
What? Your number? Oh, you are so funny...
No, I can take your joke...do not be sorry,
I found you to be someone very kind,
Okey, I will give my number; No, I do not mind...

What? Where do I live? Do I work? Do I have friends?
How about you? Do you work? Do you have friends?
Me? Well I am just student like you,
Yes...homeworks are all only things I do,
Oh, by the way...I got the soda and chocolate again,
Winning always my intent...same bet? See you until then...

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Who Will Be Next?














When I was with you,
I found out she was with you too,
I fought for you with her,
But she took you away farther and farther...

I felt envy...I felt anger,
Knowing I have been betrayed,
I lost myself, I lost my pride...
Day and night I cried and cried...

As I looked back from our past, I felt bad...
For her, my heart felt so sad,
She, who saved me from you...
Anything about you, she did not have any clue...

She was a fool and so was I,
Falling in love with closed eyes,
Ah, poison love, who will set her free...?
..who will save her from you as she did for me...

Commitment














My formula of finding someone,
Is calculate his presence before hand,
Draw his image in my mind,
Mathematically, in any moment he will come...

All I have to do is close my eyes,
Where deep within he resides,
So, what if he is imaginary one,
At least I have a perfect man,

Also, I could create as many as I can,
And remove all of them when I am done...
You see, someone real is hard to find...
And I could only offer zero time,

(There, I answered your question...you know, the bet still on...)

Monday, October 08, 2007

It Is Not Possible














Once upon a time,
I saw a smile that shines,
The eyes that always meet mine,
With a face I longing to find,
And for the first time...
I met a man that was so kind...

The man that I once love,
The one who made me laugh,
Who wipes the tears on my eyes,
My loneliness he hides,
Opened the door of heaven for me,
And showed treasures of love for me to see...

Yes, once upon a time,
When I once love a man,
When I thought, his words were mine...
when I thought, I was the only one in his mind...
Sadly, he gave his heart also to another woman...
"Goodbye" was my last word to the man I once loved...once upon a time...

Sunday, October 07, 2007

The Words














Your cries everynight,
Is killing me inside,
Whenever you are in pain,
Poison flows throughout my veins,
I hand you all my love,
And everything even my life,
If you only know,
No one else I wanted but you...

Forgive me for leaving you,
Believe me...I am missing you too,
Have faith and be patient sweetheart,
Together again we will be my love,
Would you make a promise sweetheart?
Please me not to cry tonight,
Believe me, I am keeping you in heart and mind...
Sweetheart, even from beyond...you still mine..

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Misunderstanding














If you could only look at me in the eye,
You will see that my heart will never lie,
If you could only hear the words I say,
you will see that I am here to stay,
If you could only see my tears for you,
You will know that you are hurting me so,
If you could only look behind,
You will see that I am reaching you with my hand,
How could you be so deaf and blind...
...And completely forgotten who I am...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

The Pawn














Who is she in your life?
I wonder about her once in awhile,
And her name you should forget by now,
But quite often you mentioned somehow...

A promised words,
That was once I came accross,
"I will lost without.." as you told,
With those words, my heart was sold..

Chess is your favorite game,
Sacrifice all the pieces just to win,
On her expense, you were thinking,
...of winning everything...

"She still calls me..." you said,
"Even I told her I love you not her..." you said,
Threathen by her, I took your heart...
But I just realized how foolish it was...

Your intention I now clearly see...
How long this game is going to be?
Certainly, it will be over soon,
For I am no longer afraid to be alone..