My Imperfection

I live in fear from time to time,
A fear of knowing who I am,
I live with confusion and uncertain,
And everyday for me is a challenge,
I live moment by moment,
And this is who I am,
I live with my imperfection,
And I am quite different from everyone,
I will be waiting here for you...to be mine...
...if you change your mind...

The First Time I Met You

Inch by inch my car rolled down,
Into the icy road, into the stop sign...
Finally, I reached the bottom,
There, I saw a gorgerous man...

The snow was thicker down below,
And a chevy truck climbing so slow,
He rolled down his window,
And looked into my shadow...

He glanced, he smiled, he waved at me...
I glanced, I smiled, I waved at him nervously...
His presence....deep inside, I felt...
..that instant moment my frozen heart started to melt...

The Nonesense

Perhaps, into the deepest, darkest empty space of the mind...
Is where the door of the unknown opens,
Or in a darkness late night when everything in silence...
Is where the mind touches the faces of the unexplain,
Or maybe...just maybe in a blink of an eye,
The mind crosses the boundery of space and time...

Reading the coming events beforehand,
Hunted by unfamiliar face in a brief moment of time,
Feeling the cry of unrest voices from beyond,
Consistantly, all unfamiliar faces flashing in mind,
Reaping the fabric of normal existence,
...defies all languages of mind...

In Time

Where warm gentle breeze touches my face,
And where wind slowly brushes my hair,
Where the wild flowers dances infront of my eyes,
And tall green grass bow when I walk by,
Will you take me to that places again?
Places where you and I had been...

Will I listen to the whisper of the ocean?
And will leave my footprint behind?
Will the wave erase my existance?
And still see myself in a distant?
Will you continue to built a castle on the sand?
Even when my heart is already gone?

Will I feel love again...
Even my heart still drown in pain...?
Will I feel happiness...
Even all infront of me is loneliness...?
Will I disappear into the crowd?
And to stranger's face...will I fall in love...?

What If...

There once a great story teller that lived,
Wrote amazing stories in the cave,
Many nights and many days,
Through his thought, history of many live were portrayed...

Whispers on the cave's wall,
His shadow crawled,
Behind the light,
His vision of history, he marked...

Until one day, his thought...his whisper...
His words could no longer heard...
Deep into the dark, cold cave...
Underneath the mountain's dust...was his grave...

Billions and billions years passed,
Then, the cave awaked the past,
Claimed by each and every mind of the believer,
Were the words of the greatest story teller...

Into the believer's mind,
A change happenned so sudden...
Faith was created based on the vision of history,
By the words of amazing story teller's stories...

What followed next were...
A war from the East and to the West,
A war to the North,
and continues all the way to the South....

Into the believer's mind,
A change happenned so sudden...
Faith was created based on the vision of history,
...by the words of amazing story teller's stories...

What followed next were...
A war from the East and to the West,
A war to the North,
And continues all the way to the South....

My One and Only One

You taught me to laugh my tears,
And confronted all my fears,
You gave me all the confident,
And let me own myself again,

You gave me a hand whenever I fall,
And carried me when I could not walk tall,
You sang me such beautiful songs,
And woke up my heart that has been dead so long...

You are very giving,
Very caring and very loving,
Can I tell you something...?
I want you to know that you are my love...my everything...

The Unexplained

As I looked at the object moved and fell to the floor,
I was frozen with disbelief and horror,
A quite extraordinary had occured,
How can I forget and ignore...

I experienced the presence once,
A phenomena I could not understand,
Did I just had a glimpse to the boundary of space and time?
Or perhaps, it is just creation of my mind...

Would you like to see your future before hand?
To see people one by one leaving you behind,
To feel the pain and suffering of love one,
Are you ready to embrance what is beyond...?

Many secrets I must keep,
For an open mind I must wait,
Every night I must stay late...
As I continue to search the key of my faith...

The Bridge

Moving up and down,
Right, left, straight, curve and round,
Revisiting the past abandoned by time,
To every movement of my hand...

Tracing each and every line,
The patterns slowly defined,
Each and every stroke,
My life gradually unfold...

Reliving the past,
In a short moment...so fast,
Patterns after patters before my eyes,
Eventually, I will reach the sky...

Things I Do for You

Through your eyes I could read your mind,
And I realized you are such brilliant man,
Hearing you thoughts...hearing your ideas,
You allow me see our extreme differences...

You often offer me no words,
But I could hear your heart promising me the world,
A brief moment with an unremarkable man...
I could only dream...I could only hope to be mine...

For now, I have to say goodbye to you..
Into your past I will go,
Perhaps, then will I find...
If there is a future for you and I...

ASTROLABE

...where am I?
I am dreaming again? Where am I...
Oh, my god! Is this the life beyond?
Am I walking towards the beginning of the end...?

Nothing to touch, nothing to feel...
No one to love, no one to care...
Feeling of no remorse, feeling of no regret...
Feeling so peaceful, feeling so content...

Thinking of nothingness,
No sadness, no happiness...
No more pain, no tears...floating among the stars...
Finally...I will now close my eyes....

Childish Play

Let me touch your hand,
And I will read your palm,
Today, is you lucky day...
For she will be back to stay...

Though, only for a brief moment...
You migh catch her smile in a distant,
And if close your eyes and listen,
Perhaps you will hear her heart opens...

Don't give me that look,
Honestly, I am telling you the truth..
Don't give me that laugh...
Okey, that's it! I'm leaving...give my chocolate back!

The Ritual

I am excited to see your smile again,
I am dying to hold your warm loving hands,
I am anxious to hold you in my arms,
My love, I have been waiting for you for a long time...

I love to see your blue eyes,
I love to kiss your sensational hot lips,
I love to feel your unbelievable touch,
Sweetheart, I missed you so much...

Wishing a dream for you and I,
Hoping to be with you every moment of my life,
All I could at this moment is create a dream for us...
And our reality happens only when I close my eyes...

Here are fresh flowers I pick for you,
Looking at your picture, your smile is so true...
I go insane when I think of the past,
Why you instead of me...? Your life instead of mine...?

Please listen to the words coming from my heart,
Promise...soon... I will be by your side,
And once again before I say goodnight,
I will read you a poem I wrote tonight...

Thinking of You

I touched deep underneath the ocean,
I listened and followed the steps on the sand,
I played and danced with the familiar sound,
But the lost heart could not be found...

One by one, I saw it falling down,
I watched it hopelessly until dawn,
I reached blindlessly with my hand,
But the treasured memories were already gone...

I climbed the mountain of dreams,
I sang the passion's secret theme,
I kissed the passing gentle wind,
And once again...I followed the end of the beginning...

(as someonce said, "Inta Hyatee....Ana Ahbak Awe....)

Until the End of Time

Remember the day...?
Every late afternoon you and I runaway,
Chasing you to the endless twisted rocky road,
Up to the grassy hill, you and I followed...

Holding hand and hand on top of the hill,
The echo of silence together we both fulfill,
As the cold breeze embranced you and I,
A promised of forever love I saw in your eyes...

I gazed on the magnificent sky,
And said goodbye to the sun's fading fire,
When your body touched mine,
I completely lost my mind...

Gradually, everything disappear...
From you, I heard all poems of shakespeare...
Insanely, I closed my eyes...
...feeling you until the sunrise...

I come back to our place again and again,
But you were gone, vanished like the wind,
Just remember what I told you years ago,
Never will I stop loving you...till death I will be with you...

Soon, in Time

A never ending story,
Written by you for me,
Sealed with kisses and tears,
Tossed in time for no one hear...

My heart long to hear,
The words of a heart so sweet, so dear...
Though, I slept with sadness and fear...
I dreamed the ending of the story of us be near...

Kept by the cold dark night,
Among the stars, the words breath and hide...
Guarded by the gentle hand of heaven,
The never ending story...only for me was given...