Agastache

The Shadow of His Shadow

2010-05-19T21:28:00.000-07:00

It is amazing to look back in my past, writing silly things. I could not believe the things I do when I am in love...

I do hope my past will end and remain just a beautiful memories.

Looking From A Distant

2008-09-08T21:08:00.000-07:00

I pushed love aside,
Uncertainty became my guide,
I reached deep within my heart,
Gradually I fell apart...

I showed the face of happiness,
A peaceful smile of forgiveness,
I laughed, sang and danced...
A gesture full of pretence...

I followed the footprint as fast as I can,
And illusion became a friend,
Chased it round and round,
I struggled with no end...

The Wish

2008-09-04T23:21:00.000-07:00

I could see the wind,
I could chase the falling rain,
I could fly over the mountain so high,
I could talk to the sun with my eye,
I could stop the passing cloud,
I could touch the sky above,
I could bury the past on the sand,
Or perhaps I could keep precious moments stay on my hand...

The Fantasy

2008-08-28T05:14:00.000-07:00

Again, here he comes...
With his gorgous eyes gave me a glance,
I try to listen to his unspoken words,
Holding my smile as hard as I could...

As he getting closer and closer,
My heart beats faster and faster,
Not today...not ever...he knows...
And I know...

As he passing me by,
I read his life through his eyes,
Giving me a smile with no goodbye...
The word "I Love You" both our heart cries...

Forever Love

2008-08-04T21:57:00.000-07:00

Do not ask me how or why,
Do not look me with teary eyes,
Please forgive me for all my lies,
No one to be blame but I...

You do not know how much I am missing you,
I wish you are feeling the same way I do too,
Please, kiss me like you always do...
sweetheart, hold my hand before I go...

I will be with you all the time,
I promise your love is forever mine,
Not to worry...I will be fine,
Sweetheart, forgive me for leaving you behind...

Count the days, count the night...
Forever we will not be apart,
Look up on the dark silent night above,
Among the stars...I will always be with you my dearest love...

Hello Again

2008-07-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

I should not smile at you,
I should not even sit next to you,
I should not forever think of you,
By now, I should not confuse how I feel of you...

I should perhaps ignore you,
I should maybe completely avoid you,
I should step away far away from you,
By now, I should be able to say "I do not love you..."

I should not tell her how I feel about you,
I should not take the chance of loosing both of you,
I should not always think of you,
By now, I should not say "I forever love you..."

Crazy About You

2008-06-08T21:25:00.000-07:00

Feeling of being misplace,
Sweat pouring down my face,
Heart beat constantly in race,
Shyness and nervousness, constantly, I embrace...

Ignoring your smile,
Which I long for a while,
Avoiding your beautiful eyes,
Everytime I hear your goodbyes,

Hearing your manly voice,
My heart always rejoice,
Longing to make a noise,
But silence always my choice...

The feeling is so intense,
My thoughts are out of sequence,
Each moment is full of suspense,
Why I do not make any sense...?

When I Am Gone

2008-06-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

My cries and laughters are for you,
With my touches and kisses I share it all with you,
True love I am giving you,
Believe it...I am for you...

You should learn to appreciate,
The life that we continue to create,
Taking me for granted really hurts,
And ignoring my existance is mostly I hate...

I am in your loving arms,
Have a moment with me while you can,
Please, take a look around...
For it may all be gone...

Looking Away

2008-06-01T22:55:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder too,
If it is really you,
An old face that I was used to,
With those sad eyes so blue,
Makes my breathing so slow...

You are not be blamed,
Even it caused me so much pain,
You continued to played the life's unbeatable game,
A heart drown with shame,
Forgiveness you asked again and again...

The colors faded away,
My heart have nothing to say,
Hatred...I did not allow to stay,
Perhaps my wounds will heal someday,
On the bed of dreams...only will I lay....

You Still My Bright Star

2008-05-19T21:36:00.000-07:00

Sweetheart, I do feel it...
Your eyes show how much it hurts,
Again, to change my life for you,
This time, it will be hard for me do...

I will deny all my feelings towards to you,
For now, please pretend my words are true,
When you left sometime ago,
I promised not to say to anyone the words "I love you..."

Obviously, my heart still with you,
But my life is different now as yours too,
I love him as much I have loved you...
And certainly, losing him...that I could not do...

Here is Where I Live

2008-05-13T23:28:00.000-07:00

Should I have to know you?
Would you make my dream come true?
If it truely you...
Then, with close eyes I will be with you...

I will tell you who I am,
I will even tell you where I will be found,
I will tell you I am not far,
If you tell me who you are...

Should I tell you who I am?
Come, hold my hand...
Lay next to me until dawn,
And I will show you the world I own...

Tell me who you are,
Do you really from far afar?
Certainly, you and I are in love...
But are you willing to leave everything you have?

Not Again...

2008-04-29T20:48:00.000-07:00

From the voices of wise men I heard and I was told,
The sun is about 4.6 billion years old,
It is only 93 millions miles away from home,
Will this enough to give light to every dark corner of my room...?

At a constant speed of 60 miles an hour,
I got to the sun 176 years after,
I have been there once? Perhaps twice...
And saw the dark vastness of space around it with my eyes...

It is so magnificient looking from afar,
And feel its warmth as I get closer and closer,
As I remember Once, twice? As I reached the magnificient star...
I found myself lost in the moments...lost in time...

Continue to write!
Stay focus tonight!
Think of all the amazing...
Continue to Write!
Stay focus tonight!

Ah, no matter how I tried...
Always, my thoughts is all for you...
No matter what I think, say or do...
You will never wakeup and see how much I am missing you...

Continue to write! Please, continue to write...
Stay focus tonight!
Think of all the amazing...
Continue to Write! Please, continue to write...
Stay focus tonight!
Everynight, I hear the whisper of my heart...

I Will Love You Forever

2008-04-21T21:31:00.000-07:00

I am back, I am home...
Again, once again...I am alone...
Perhaps, tonight...before I close my eyes...
I will see you standing by my side...
Or maybe tonight...next to me...
You, laying down looking and smiling at me...

A home so dark, so cold...
Again, the silence unfold...
Perhaps tonight...I will hear your whisper....
You, saying the words "I LOVE YOU" on my ears...
Or maybe tonight...before I drown in our hopes and dreams....
I will see your handsome face once again...

I am back, I am here...
I count my tears, and once again I face my fear...
The wait for you has no end,
I am lost in my world of pretence...
The time, the moment will be ours soon...
Until my last breath...sweetheart, I will be with you soon...

Goodnight Sweetheart

2008-04-06T20:57:00.000-07:00

A gentle touch,
A stare with love,
A portait of the past,
A goodbye to broken heart...

A word of goodbye,
A question of why,
A denial of reality
A hope of impossibility...

A silent lips,
A gentle kiss,
A time...a place...
A love so unrest...

The Echo of their Whispers

2008-03-25T21:14:00.000-07:00

I could see it in your eyes,
With all your hidden desires,
You patiently waiting...so am I...
Come laydown next to me, and let us both stare at sky...

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He was there all along

2008-03-23T21:09:00.000-07:00

On the ground, I fell so hard...
For a moment, I cried...
Your name I called out loud,
But only my frightened voice I heard coming from above...

But, on my cheek, I felt a gentle kiss...
A warm breath touched my lips,
Then, I looked up I saw falling million pieces,
It was our shattered precious memories...

So fast, so sudden...
A man offered me his hand,
He smiled and asked "Can you stand..?"
But I ignored him and continued to lay down...

Why I could now touch the sky?
Why I could now step on clouds not so high?
Everyone must let my wishes, and let me die...
But then, I realized I was on the strange man arms and in silence he cried...

My Fairy Tale

2008-02-26T22:36:00.000-08:00

Never will I move farther,
Even knowing you are getting closer and closer,
Oh, your captivated eyes and your soft voice...
Honestly, I would choose you if I have a choice,

I pretended not hear you,
Even though I knew those words are true,
I tried not having feelings for you,
When the truth is I am crazy of you...

But never will I step back,
As your heart moving forward,
Oh, you are a kiss away from me,
It is beginning to happen and it should not be...

When The Time Comes

2008-02-23T22:35:00.000-08:00

Looking up there to the vastness of sky,
I often wonder and ask why,
Is there such place for you and I?
When will our heart stop to cry?

A place where I can touch and kiss your face,
Where you and I together, never age...
With closed eyes, I see heart's wonder beneath,
It is the only place where I could breath...

Why I am still here and you already there?
Not being with you and not seeing you seems forever,
Will you be there waiting for me when the day come?
Up above, among the stars will you hold my hand?

The Big Rip Theory

2008-02-22T22:26:00.000-08:00

The Big Rip: New Theory Ends Universe by Shredding Everything
By Robert Roy Britt, Senior Science Writer
posted: 12:04 pm ET 06 March 2003

A rather harrowing new theory about the death of the universe paints a picture of "phantom energy" ripping apart galaxies, stars, planets and eventually every speck of matter in a fantastical end to time.

Scientifically it is just about the most repulsive notion ever conceived.

The speculative but serious cosmology is described as a "pretty fantastic possibility" even by its lead author, Robert Caldwell of Dartmouth University. It explains one possible outcome for solid astronomical observations made in the late 1990s -- that the universe is expanding at an ever-increasing pace, and that something unknown is vacuuming everything outward.

The question Caldwell and his colleagues posed is, what would happen if the rate of acceleration increased?

Their answer is that the eventual, phenomenal pace would overwhelm the normal, trusted effects of gravity right down to the local level. Even the nuclear forces that bind things in the subatomic world will cease to be effective.

"The expansion becomes so fast that it literally rips apart all bound objects," Caldwell explained in a telephone interview. "It rips apart clusters of galaxies. It rips apart stars. It rips apart planets and solar systems. And it eventually rips apart all matter."

He calls it, as you might guess, the Big Rip.

The standard view

Driving the known acceleration of the universe's expansion is a mysterious thing is called dark energy, thought of by scientists as anti-gravity working over large distances.

Conventional wisdom holds that the acceleration will proceed at a constant rate, akin to a car that moves 10 mph faster with each mile traveled. With nothing to cap the acceleration, all galaxies will eventually recede from one another at the speed of light, leaving each galaxy alone in a cold, dark universe within 100 billion years. We would not be able to see any galaxies outside our Milky Way, even with the most powerful telescopes.

That's the conventional view, remarkable as it sounds.

The Big Rip theory has dark energy's prowess increasing with time, until it's an out-of-control phantom energy. Think of our car accelerating an additional 10 mph every half mile, then every hundred yards, then every foot.

Before long, the bumpers are bound to fly off. Sooner or later, our hypothetical engine will come apart, regardless of how much we spend on motor oil.

Countdown to demise

Other theorists who have reviewed the Big Rip theory are not yet sold on the idea. Meanwhile, Caldwell's team has provided a precise countdown to total demise. The projected end is, reassuringly, 20 billion years away. If our species survives the next 19 billion years (and there are serious doubts about this, given our Sun's projected fate) here are some signs that scientists of the future will want to look for.

A billion years before the end, all galaxies will have receded so far and so fast from our own as to be erased from the sky, as in no longer visible.
When the Milky Way begins to fly apart, there are 60 million years left.
Planets in our solar system will start to wing away from the Sun three months before the end of time.
When Earth explodes, the end is momentarily near.
At this point, there is still a short interval before atoms and even their nuclei break apart. "There's about 30 minutes left," Caldwell said, "But it's not quality time."

And then what? Does the universe recycle itself? Is there something after nothing?

"We're not sure what happens after that," Caldwell says. "On the face of it, it would look like time ends."

The first explosion

Caldwell's study had humble beginnings. He and his colleagues, Marc Kamionkowski and Nevin Weinberg at Caltech, were considering how a sphere of matter collapses under its own weight to form a galaxy. In computer models, they tweaked with the dark energy factor and found that too much of it would actually prevent the sphere from collapsing. In extreme cases, the sphere exploded.

"That was our hint that there was something really unusual going on," Caldwell said.

It wasn't long ago, just before the accelerated expansion was discovered, that many cosmologists believed the universe might reverse course, that normal gravity would win, and that everything would fall back in a Big Crunch. More recently, solid observational data has all but assured the infinite-expansion model and the cold, dark, never-ending end.

The Caldwell group decided there might be a third possibility, leading to their new paper, which has been submitted to the Physical Review.

But there are many unknowns. It is not clear if the dark energy driving expansion is a force not currently described by physics, or if it is merely a different manifestation of gravity over huge distances. The repulsion could be a response to dark matter, unseen stuff that is known to comprise 23 percent of the universe, based on firm observations.

Dark matter has unknown properties, and it may be related to dark energy, Caldwell said. He notes that even Einstein considered that gravity might work repulsively, in a manner consistent with his theory of general relativity.

Dark energy, being quantified only recently, tends to be discussed as some strange new force, in addition to the four fundamental forces: gravity, electromagnetism, and the strong and weak nuclear forces that govern atoms. But the repulsion is possibly just the way gravity behaves in the presence of dark energy, Caldwell said. In that sense, it is not a new force.

Cautious reception

To turn dark energy into destructive phantom energy, Caldwell and his colleagues had to play around with a thing called the cosmological constant, a mathematical fix that Einstein applied to general relativity. Einstein later called it his greatest mistake, when Edwin Hubble found in the 1920s that the universe was expanding (seven decades later, that expansion would be seen accelerating).

The cosmological constant has been recently revived. Attempts to describe dark energy differ in how the density of dark energy varies with time. In some models, the density decreases slowly. For the cosmological constant, the density is a constant. For phantom energy, it must grow with time.

"We considered a more exotic form of dark energy which was more repulsive," as Caldwell explains is.

Abraham Loeb, a theoretician at the Harvard-Smithsonian Center for Astrophysics, has quantified the lonely effects of a forever-expanding universe. Loeb stands by that scenario, but he said Caldwell's idea is nonetheless interesting to explore.

"I think it's a logical possibility," Loeb told SPACE.com. But he cautioned that altering the cosmological constant goes against current consensus.

"If I had to place a bet, I would bet in favor of the standard cosmological constant," Loeb said.

Sci-fi to reality

If Caldwell's team is right, cosmology would undergo a revolution. Sci-fi ideas like wormholes and time travel might suddenly enter the realm of hard science. All of this could sort itself out pretty soon, Caldwell believes. Observations over the next few years may actually show whether his phantom energy is possible.

"Who knows if it is right or wrong," Caldwell said of his theory. "I think we'll find out pretty soon."

In fact, recent observations from NASA's WMAP space probe have pinned down the physics of the universe with surprising accuracy. A little wiggle room remains for the cosmological constant. Yet more WMAP data are expected over the next four years. Other missions, including one called the Supernova Acceleration Probe (SNAP), could provide answers, Caldwell said.

Even if the Big Rip is a big bust, there's no guarantee of a pleasant ending.

Alternate final chapter

Paul Steinhardt, a Princeton University physicist, is, like Caldwell and Loeb, no stranger to strange ideas. Steinhardt advocates a cyclical universe, one that has no beginning or end but which instead is constantly starting over again.

Steinhardt theorizes within the generally accepted standards of the cosmological constant. He said the Big Rip is more exotic than most ideas but still conceivable, a projected possible result that is "straightforward and obvious for cosmologists."

Yet there is another entirely different possibility for the final moments of time as we know it.

In a theory put forth two years ago by Steinhardt and his colleagues, our universe is but a membrane, or brane, floating in a five-dimensional space. It is destined to collide dramatically with another brane. The idea, labeled the Ekpyrotic Universe, would replace portions of the Big Bang scenario while sticking to the presently accepted estimates of acceleration.

"Lest you get too optimistic, galaxies are destroyed in a far more violent way," Steinhardt said of the brane scenario. "They are vaporized at the next 'bang' -- the collision between branes so, you either rip them apart or you vaporize them." - courtesy of SPACE.com

Sweet Sad Memories

2008-02-18T19:04:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wonder,
If you still remember,
As I watched the rain showered the dry endless meadow,
As I watched the butterflies dances under the rainbow,
As I watched the tiny white flowers dance with each raindrops,
And as I watched the small green frog hops...hops...and hops...
I often wonder,
If will I eventually face my biggest fear...

Sometimes I wonder,
If you still near,
As I watched the leaves changes from green to rusty brown,
As I watched the snow flakes falling one by one,
As I watched the mountains silently went deep sleep,
And as I watched the freezing wind gradually creeps...
I ofter wonder,
If you and I...together...

Most of the time I wonder,
If the moment for us still there,
As I watched the twist narrow road disappears,
As I watched the thick darkness waiting so sincere,
As I watched myself standing on the middle of a thin frozen lake,
And as I watched myself waiting for you with faith...
I wonder if maybe...
If you will come back and be with me...

The Written Page

2008-01-31T22:39:00.000-08:00

If you like...
But, I am afraid I might...
Your laugh,
Your touch,
Your lips,
Your kiss,
All becomes mine when I go to sleep...

Anything you like...
But I am afraid I might...
Hold my hand,
Come and lay down,
Whisper softly,
Come underneath the sheet with me,
And I promise I will dance with you gently...

If you really like...
But, I am afraid I might...
As my hand brushing your hair,
As your are getting near,
As your burning body touched mine...
...I am afraid when I wake up, you will vanish in my mind....

The Reasons

2008-01-28T21:50:00.000-08:00

Would I...? Should I...?
What if it is all lie?
Would it be all pretence?
Should I give you another chance?

Would I...? should I...?
What if I am wrong this time?
Would I give my love again?
And should I put myself deep in shame...?

Would I...? Should I...?
What if I tell you goodbye?
Would you still continue to push me aside?
Should I keep all my feelings inside?

Would I...? Should I...?
Please, do not ask me why...
I would...you know I would like to have you as a friend,
I should have told you then that I love you when I had the chance...

A Brief Moment

2008-01-24T22:00:00.000-08:00

So, what will happen then?
Will it be the end of the end?
It does not matter...
You and I...and everything will be gone by then...
So, what do you think?
As everybody knows...
That the universe is expanding...
Their calculations indicated it so...
Everything will be rip apart?
The galaxy...the planet...us...everything?
So, that's it?
But it will be the end of everything...?
Hmm...a billion years is a long wait,
Don't you think...?
You know what? You are full of nonesense!
I will tell you one thing though...
That I will be with you no matter what happen...
Yes, until the end of time...

The language of Love

2008-01-21T21:57:00.000-08:00

Stranger's heart,
Dreams apart,
Eyes rested upon,
Stars and moon,
Shattered tears,
Stranger's fear disppeared...

Heaven beneath,
Each deep breath,
Precious love,
Silently hides,
A bed of roses,
Stranger's embrace...

Drown desires,
Touched with fire,
Promised kiss,
Forgotten wishes,
Sacred word,
Stranger's lost sword...

Let There Be Someone

2008-01-19T21:52:00.000-08:00

Laying down on bed,
Silently crying myself to live,
And for several days, I was lost and gone...
Enough! No more from the medicine man!

Exhausted physically and mentally,
My headache killing me slowly...
Please, let there be someone...
Someone! Anyone! Except for the medicine man...!

Long deep breath,
Is the moment of scape,
As soon as I close my eyes,
Will I then hear the medicine man cries...

What Left Behind

2008-01-11T22:36:00.000-08:00

Grandma, are there really fairies living in that tree?
...but why only in the cashew tree?
Grandma, can you see the tree glowing?
...can you see it Grandma?
What? The tree is covered with fireflies?
...yes, I can see the moon, grandma.
It's full moon...what?
...fairies will be out tonight?
Will I hear them sing? See them Dance?
What? The tree will showers with fragrant flowers...?
Oh! wow! Can we stay late and wait for them, grandma?
Would I be able to see them...?
Fairies do not like bad Kids...?
BUT I AM ALWAYS GOOD!...
Am I grandma...?
So, can we stay and wait for the fairies grandma, please?

The Missing Piece

2008-01-08T22:47:00.000-08:00

Perhaps, it is him...
The man with loving eyes,
The man with soft, gentle voice...
The man with passionate touch,
The man with warm smile,
The man with tender lips,
The man so humble, so kind...
The man that my heart desires...
Perhaps, it is him...
..the man who only exist in my dream...

The Total Package

2008-01-03T20:47:00.000-08:00

As you can see, I am not a writer...
I am just playing with words over and over,
You cannot stop laughing while reading my writing,
For you is quite intertaining,
To you, my drafts does not make sense at all...
And yet encourage me to write more and more...

Everynight, I tell you stories in simple words...
Like playing music with familiar notes,
I extended my arms to you and from time to time I knocked,
With the intension of waking your heart,
But until now you have not yet realized,
That the written words are all for you my love...

So laugh as hard you can,
To all sillyness that I have written,
I am glad you have so much fun,
Don't you know your smile is all I want...?
And I will be happy to be one,
To be your special someone...

Perhaps, there is such world

2008-01-03T05:56:00.000-08:00

With heavy weary eyes,
I continue to search the dark night sky,
With hope and dreams for you and I,
I continue to stare at the stars up high...

I see your face,
I feel your touch,
I have your heart,
The moment I close my eyes...

You, I could never define...
Who you are often comes in mind,
You move faster than light,
And disappear in a blink of an eye...

...with heavy weary eyes,
I continue to search the dark night sky,
...with hope and dreams for you and I,
I continue to stare at the stars up high...

My Imperfection

2007-12-31T23:30:00.000-08:00

I live in fear from time to time,
A fear of knowing who I am,
I live with confusion and uncertain,
And everyday for me is a challenge,
I live moment by moment,
And this is who I am,
I live with my imperfection,
And I am quite different from everyone,
I will be waiting here for you...to be mine...
...if you change your mind...

The First Time I Met You

2007-12-29T06:35:00.000-08:00

Inch by inch my car rolled down,
Into the icy road, into the stop sign...
Finally, I reached the bottom,
There, I saw a gorgerous man...

The snow was thicker down below,
And a chevy truck climbing so slow,
He rolled down his window,
And looked into my shadow...

He glanced, he smiled, he waved at me...
I glanced, I smiled, I waved at him nervously...
His presence....deep inside, I felt...
..that instant moment my frozen heart started to melt...

The Nonesense

2007-12-27T19:29:00.000-08:00

Perhaps, into the deepest, darkest empty space of the mind...
Is where the door of the unknown opens,
Or in a darkness late night when everything in silence...
Is where the mind touches the faces of the unexplain,
Or maybe...just maybe in a blink of an eye,
The mind crosses the boundery of space and time...

Reading the coming events beforehand,
Hunted by unfamiliar face in a brief moment of time,
Feeling the cry of unrest voices from beyond,
Consistantly, all unfamiliar faces flashing in mind,
Reaping the fabric of normal existence,
...defies all languages of mind...

In Time

2007-12-25T19:51:00.000-08:00

Where warm gentle breeze touches my face,
And where wind slowly brushes my hair,
Where the wild flowers dances infront of my eyes,
And tall green grass bow when I walk by,
Will you take me to that places again?
Places where you and I had been...

Will I listen to the whisper of the ocean?
And will leave my footprint behind?
Will the wave erase my existance?
And still see myself in a distant?
Will you continue to built a castle on the sand?
Even when my heart is already gone?

Will I feel love again...
Even my heart still drown in pain...?
Will I feel happiness...
Even all infront of me is loneliness...?
Will I disappear into the crowd?
And to stranger's face...will I fall in love...?

What If...

2007-12-24T03:46:00.000-08:00

There once a great story teller that lived,
Wrote amazing stories in the cave,
Many nights and many days,
Through his thought, history of many live were portrayed...

Whispers on the cave's wall,
His shadow crawled,
Behind the light,
His vision of history, he marked...

Until one day, his thought...his whisper...
His words could no longer heard...
Deep into the dark, cold cave...
Underneath the mountain's dust...was his grave...

Billions and billions years passed,
Then, the cave awaked the past,
Claimed by each and every mind of the believer,
Were the words of the greatest story teller...

Into the believer's mind,
A change happenned so sudden...
Faith was created based on the vision of history,
By the words of amazing story teller's stories...

What followed next were...
A war from the East and to the West,
A war to the North,
and continues all the way to the South....

Into the believer's mind,
A change happenned so sudden...
Faith was created based on the vision of history,
...by the words of amazing story teller's stories...

What followed next were...
A war from the East and to the West,
A war to the North,
And continues all the way to the South....

My One and Only One

2007-12-22T19:04:00.000-08:00

You taught me to laugh my tears,
And confronted all my fears,
You gave me all the confident,
And let me own myself again,

You gave me a hand whenever I fall,
And carried me when I could not walk tall,
You sang me such beautiful songs,
And woke up my heart that has been dead so long...

You are very giving,
Very caring and very loving,
Can I tell you something...?
I want you to know that you are my love...my everything...

The Unexplained

2007-12-20T21:15:00.000-08:00

As I looked at the object moved and fell to the floor,
I was frozen with disbelief and horror,
A quite extraordinary had occured,
How can I forget and ignore...

I experienced the presence once,
A phenomena I could not understand,
Did I just had a glimpse to the boundary of space and time?
Or perhaps, it is just creation of my mind...

Would you like to see your future before hand?
To see people one by one leaving you behind,
To feel the pain and suffering of love one,
Are you ready to embrance what is beyond...?

Many secrets I must keep,
For an open mind I must wait,
Every night I must stay late...
As I continue to search the key of my faith...

The Bridge

2007-12-19T20:30:00.000-08:00

Moving up and down,
Right, left, straight, curve and round,
Revisiting the past abandoned by time,
To every movement of my hand...

Tracing each and every line,
The patterns slowly defined,
Each and every stroke,
My life gradually unfold...

Reliving the past,
In a short moment...so fast,
Patterns after patters before my eyes,
Eventually, I will reach the sky...

Things I Do for You

2007-12-16T18:14:00.000-08:00

Through your eyes I could read your mind,
And I realized you are such brilliant man,
Hearing you thoughts...hearing your ideas,
You allow me see our extreme differences...

You often offer me no words,
But I could hear your heart promising me the world,
A brief moment with an unremarkable man...
I could only dream...I could only hope to be mine...

For now, I have to say goodbye to you..
Into your past I will go,
Perhaps, then will I find...
If there is a future for you and I...

ASTROLABE

2007-12-13T21:30:00.000-08:00

...where am I?
I am dreaming again? Where am I...
Oh, my god! Is this the life beyond?
Am I walking towards the beginning of the end...?

Nothing to touch, nothing to feel...
No one to love, no one to care...
Feeling of no remorse, feeling of no regret...
Feeling so peaceful, feeling so content...

Thinking of nothingness,
No sadness, no happiness...
No more pain, no tears...floating among the stars...
Finally...I will now close my eyes....

Childish Play

2007-12-12T12:08:00.000-08:00

Let me touch your hand,
And I will read your palm,
Today, is you lucky day...
For she will be back to stay...

Though, only for a brief moment...
You migh catch her smile in a distant,
And if close your eyes and listen,
Perhaps you will hear her heart opens...

Don't give me that look,
Honestly, I am telling you the truth..
Don't give me that laugh...
Okey, that's it! I'm leaving...give my chocolate back!

The Ritual

2007-12-10T22:22:00.000-08:00

I am excited to see your smile again,
I am dying to hold your warm loving hands,
I am anxious to hold you in my arms,
My love, I have been waiting for you for a long time...

I love to see your blue eyes,
I love to kiss your sensational hot lips,
I love to feel your unbelievable touch,
Sweetheart, I missed you so much...

Wishing a dream for you and I,
Hoping to be with you every moment of my life,
All I could at this moment is create a dream for us...
And our reality happens only when I close my eyes...

Here are fresh flowers I pick for you,
Looking at your picture, your smile is so true...
I go insane when I think of the past,
Why you instead of me...? Your life instead of mine...?

Please listen to the words coming from my heart,
Promise...soon... I will be by your side,
And once again before I say goodnight,
I will read you a poem I wrote tonight...

Thinking of You

2007-12-09T20:49:00.000-08:00

I touched deep underneath the ocean,
I listened and followed the steps on the sand,
I played and danced with the familiar sound,
But the lost heart could not be found...

One by one, I saw it falling down,
I watched it hopelessly until dawn,
I reached blindlessly with my hand,
But the treasured memories were already gone...

I climbed the mountain of dreams,
I sang the passion's secret theme,
I kissed the passing gentle wind,
And once again...I followed the end of the beginning...

(as someonce said, "Inta Hyatee....Ana Ahbak Awe....)

Until the End of Time

2007-12-04T22:35:00.000-08:00

Remember the day...?
Every late afternoon you and I runaway,
Chasing you to the endless twisted rocky road,
Up to the grassy hill, you and I followed...

Holding hand and hand on top of the hill,
The echo of silence together we both fulfill,
As the cold breeze embranced you and I,
A promised of forever love I saw in your eyes...

I gazed on the magnificent sky,
And said goodbye to the sun's fading fire,
When your body touched mine,
I completely lost my mind...

Gradually, everything disappear...
From you, I heard all poems of shakespeare...
Insanely, I closed my eyes...
...feeling you until the sunrise...

I come back to our place again and again,
But you were gone, vanished like the wind,
Just remember what I told you years ago,
Never will I stop loving you...till death I will be with you...

Soon, in Time

2007-12-03T22:08:00.000-08:00

A never ending story,
Written by you for me,
Sealed with kisses and tears,
Tossed in time for no one hear...

My heart long to hear,
The words of a heart so sweet, so dear...
Though, I slept with sadness and fear...
I dreamed the ending of the story of us be near...

Kept by the cold dark night,
Among the stars, the words breath and hide...
Guarded by the gentle hand of heaven,
The never ending story...only for me was given...

The Uncertain

2007-11-30T23:44:00.000-08:00

He said, "I love you.."
I whispered, "I love you too.."
He smiled, kissed me and said goodbye,
And left me with tears on my eyes...

To face the wait that long,
For sure, to him my heart belongs,
To remind myself of him,
I recites the words again and again...

He loves me...
He loves me not...
He loves me...
He loves me not...
...for sure he love me,
...or maybe he does not love me...

In Time

2007-11-26T21:10:00.000-08:00

If I could only speak the word in silence,
Probably, I will probably hear your presence,

If I could only listen to a laughter's cries,
Maybe, I will dream to fly so high...

If I could only close my eyes,
Perhaps I could see what your heart defies,

If I could only have a moment of eternity,
Perhaps...just perhaps I could touch the beauty infront of me...

Posession

2007-11-23T20:00:00.000-08:00

I often question why?
But the answer, I could not see in your eyes,
My truthfulness...to you is all lie,
And never again hear my cries...

Distrust? I am certain why,
I left you, and I choose to stray,
Only to find myself back to you,
Will you forgive me too...?

Again, I asked again...why?
To each other, we could not say goodbye...
Why must us be together...
When forgiveness we no longer give to each other...

Your Memories Still Linger

2007-11-21T22:04:00.000-08:00

The night is getting dark and cold,
And your are all alone and no one to hold,
Lay down on bed and close your eyes my love,
And I promise I will stay with you throughout the night...

Sleep and dream of me for now sweetheart,
Feel my fire to keep you warm tonight,
With the flickering candle light,
You and I will dance until sunrise...

With my gentle touch and kisses,
My love always for you as I promise,
Please keep away all your worries my love,
You still have my heart even when the candle light is out...

I will Never Say Goodbye

2007-11-19T20:42:00.000-08:00

Violet, blue, red and yellow,
Showers of colors soaked my pillow,
As I whispered goodbye to early spring,
My heart awaked and started to sing,
Summer's heat warms my frozen heart,
With the kiss of fall, I fell apart...
Cold wind hide my tears gradually,
On the heartless winter of eternity...
I chased the change of season,
By all forgotten dreams, I was imprisoned...
That moment when my eyes closed,
I lost his smile...forever, I lost his voice...

Moving Forward

2007-11-15T04:49:00.000-08:00

Finally, I will say goodbye...
To the face thats only for my eyes,
Time to say goodbye...
To the heart that often makes me cry...

Emptyness

2007-11-13T04:07:00.000-08:00

I never left you my love,
Always and forever I am on your side,
Sweetheart, slowly close your eyes,
And you will see I am still alive...

Feel my touch on your face,
And feel my warm embrace,
On those lonely nights, you will hear..
Please listen to the songs I whisper...

Sweetheart, promise never say goodbye...
Until the end of time, together you and I...
All my kisses and all my love,
Only the wind will give you my heart...

The Wait

2007-11-10T23:33:00.001-08:00

On the bed of dreams I laid down,
And the silence of darkness I found,

Away, I spun and spun...
Engulfed with emptyness, I drown...

Looking down from above the sky,
My heart smiled and said goodbye,

He showered me with white flowers all around...
And he brushed my hair with his gentle hand...

Finally, I reached the end...
...I touched his heart once again...

Waking Up

2007-11-08T22:36:00.000-08:00

Please, stay...
Sweetheart, do not walk away...
I promise I will always be here,
Please, this time do not disappear...

There you are my love,
Why are you standing in the dark?
Love, do not be sad...
You know, I am away by your side...

Please, come back...please?
I am here can't you not see?
Please! Please don't go!
Oh, no! Sweetheart where are you?

In Love

2007-11-07T04:27:00.000-08:00

I woke up one day,
And you were gone far, far away...
Aften then, every night I turned all the lights...
So, you will find your way back perhaps...?

Night after night, day by day...
Through my dreams, I ran away...
To the only place for you and I,
Also, where my heart will never ever cry...

Then, I woke up one night...
You were standing by my side,
Tears falling from your eyes,
Once again I kissed your heart, and I believed all your lies...

Holding The Past

2007-11-05T20:11:00.000-08:00

He screamed,
He yelled,
He cursed,
Again my words, he misunderstood...

He cried,
He kicked,
He punched,
Then, gently he held my face with bloody hands...

He felt jelous,
He was furious,
He was full of hatred,
Towards you, the man in silence, the man that I always wanted...

That One Summer Day

2007-11-04T19:50:00.000-08:00

Late in the night,
Suddenly I glaced at candlelight,
And watched the flickering flame,
Then, continue reading your poem...

Poem after poem,
Then I looked at the photo album,
I asked myself who are you?
Are you searching me as I to you too...?

Once upon a time I was with you,
And once then I have loved you too?
Your written words promise me so,
To stay with me and will not let me go...

Late in the night,
Poem after poem I will continue to write,
Suddenly, I glanced at the candle light,
And all of a sudden my memory all came back...

I read your poem after poem,
Then, I looked at the photo album,
In tears I cursed that tragic day...
That brief moment when you were taken away...

I fear my memory might one day never come,
So, night after night write you a poem,
And while watching the candle's flickering flame,
It reminded me that our love, on that one summer day, never end...

Reflection

2007-11-03T21:16:00.001-07:00

I read my words,
Through his eyes,
I listen to wisdom,
Through his mind,
Over and over,
I cried reading my words...

...a higher level of curiousity and awareness of the uncertainty, such creatures neither has no interest nor has no concern. And though, Mathematics is the only language used by such barbaric life form, none has the ability to define beyond the complex arrangement of numbers and the limit of equations. Such pity knowing an extremely and highly intellegent short live life form eventually will ended their own existance...

There Will Be Another Time

2007-11-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

For certain it will happen one or more time,
Why should I not give a smile when it comes,
Then perhaps I will gradually understand,
How to lose life's challenge time after time,

Not now, not soon...
I would like to extend my wins alone,
Though, such small accomplishment on hand,
But is a part of a larger piece in mind...

As you walk, I run...
While you smile, I laughed and had fun...
Wait and eventually your wins will come,
For now, it is all mine...

You know where I could be found,
Again, my prize I will count...
Pepsi and Reeses Peanut cup, what a grand prize!
Until then, for now I will enjoy the moment with a surprise...

Moment Of Time

2007-11-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

Here comes the sleepy fainted sun,
Peeking on top of the mountain behind,
Looking down on the endless emerald ground,
Giving a gentle warthm on to everything around,
Painting the gray sky and picturesque land,
Patiently and gently kissing the heaven's hand,

Here comes the sleepy fainted sun,
Watching the stars falling one by one,
Hiding away the fading pale moon,
Saying goodbye too early to soon,
Witnessing the never ending change...
Inevitably, colliding with life's beginning and end...

Lost In Time

2007-10-29T20:41:00.000-07:00

My love, my lips still for you...
My heart cries and the suffering continues...
Hurtful moments we could no longer undo...
My love, I could not believe... you and I were through...

I regret for not believing you...
And I blame the world for me leaving you...
Confused and lost with love as we...
My love, please don't forget to think of me...

Together again, we will never be...
The course of our lives changed instantly...
But my love please, promise me...
Try once in a while to remember me...

Only In A Dream

2007-10-27T21:12:00.000-07:00

My heart reached the darkness night,
And your kindness made everything bright,

I catched the falling stars one by one,
And forever showered with glitters on your shrine,

I spread my arms wide open,
And I catched your heart and the falling heaven,

I turned around once again,
Said goodbye to a world with no pain...

As far as my eyes could see...
I followed you...as where my destiny should be...

The Silence

2007-10-26T21:15:00.000-07:00

I searched far and near,
Tried to find what my heart hears,
I relived life over and over,
Felt the lost of him year after year...

My tears answered all the pain,
And the soft whispers voice often came,
As I smiled the world of dreams,
I repainted the faded portrait of him...

As I waited time to come by,
I watched season after season on fire,
As I looked up high in the dark...dark sky,
Beyond the moon...beyond the stars...is a place for he and I...

The Patterns and You

2007-10-23T08:01:00.001-07:00

Colors...more colors,
Shapes...more shapes,
Numbers after numbers,
Must all I significantly have to remember...?

The colors I see,
The shapes around me,
The numbers I counted endlessly,
What is this means for me...what should it be...?

The colors is not what see,
The shapes do not dances in perfect harmony,
The numbers speaks so silently,
Am I witnessing the creation of infinity...?

Hatred and love; Life and death,
Mathematically all should relates,
The balance of patterns...
Is it the birth of creation and destruction...?

Probably, I see no colors...
Perhaps, I touch no shapes...
Maybe, I speaks no numbers...
Except I see, touch and speak patterns...patterns after patterns...

Why don't you come with me...
I will take you where my heart will be,
Why are you so afraid of me?
Is it because I think differently...?

Jelousy

2007-10-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

Ready to go?
What? You are waiting for who?
Oh, is he coming too?
I thought it's just us two?
What? But how about you?
You did not tell me you have something to do?
So, he and I are going without you?

Why are you pushing us apart?
Did you already changed your heart?
Why are you so difficult?
Your actions...I am truely hurt...
Do you think I am right for him?
You think he will give me everything,
My love, you are mistaken. No matter what, I am not leaving..

I Always With You

2007-10-18T20:24:00.000-07:00

White flowers for you,
Also, a short poem too,
Each and every words,
It opens both of our world...

With wild flowers grow,
With the wind's soft gentle blow,
And with the warm of sun,
Reassures me that you never been gone...

Your eyes belongs to the sky,
But the heaven is for you and I,
Even seperated by time,
Your love never leave me behind...

I am standing below your feet...
As my face bear life's defeat,
Without you I struggle alone to live,
Unable to touch you...unable to kiss you again is the most I hate...

Gone In A Split Moment

2007-10-17T23:20:00.000-07:00

The beautiful language,
The amazing and breathtaking place,
The unrecognized words,
In my heart poured,
Although, all around was a secret...
To everything around, love I felt...

It was your gentle voice,
And your smile I loved the most,
It was your eyes unraveled all,
And your short words broke my heart's brick wall,
Was everything really there?
Were you and what I felt for you real?

His Best Friend

2007-10-15T23:02:00.000-07:00

Why must be you,
Oh, my nightmare came true,
How I am going to explain to him,
That you are often in my dream...

Telling him everything,
He will not be forgiving,
No one to be blamed but me,
Absolutely, he will be angry...

Why must you the one,
Who touches my heart so warm,
Who gives love willingly,
Oh, who should I choose you or he?

What If

2007-10-14T21:18:00.000-07:00

I will count one by one,
of all the stars up in heaven,
I will then pick the brightest one,
On your perfect face will it shine,
I will wakeup the sleepy moon,
Even in the middle of warm afternoon,
To guide you towards the calm blue sea,
A place where you and I should be,
Then and only then will I sure find...
Your lost heart that should be mine...

Behind the Game

2007-10-13T19:43:00.000-07:00

What? Me, psychic?
Hmmm...let me think,
Nope! Another insane question...?
What? Do I have ambition?
No, I just take life as it comes,
Good or bad I am willing to welcome...

How about you? Are you psychic?
You are? Then, guess what I am going to ask next,
What? Your number? Oh, you are so funny...
No, I can take your joke...do not be sorry,
I found you to be someone very kind,
Okey, I will give my number; No, I do not mind...

What? Where do I live? Do I work? Do I have friends?
How about you? Do you work? Do you have friends?
Me? Well I am just student like you,
Yes...homeworks are all only things I do,
Oh, by the way...I got the soda and chocolate again,
Winning always my intent...same bet? See you until then...

Who Will Be Next?

2007-10-10T21:45:00.000-07:00

When I was with you,
I found out she was with you too,
I fought for you with her,
But she took you away farther and farther...

I felt envy...I felt anger,
Knowing I have been betrayed,
I lost myself, I lost my pride...
Day and night I cried and cried...

As I looked back from our past, I felt bad...
For her, my heart felt so sad,
She, who saved me from you...
Anything about you, she did not have any clue...

She was a fool and so was I,
Falling in love with closed eyes,
Ah, poison love, who will set her free...?
..who will save her from you as she did for me...

Commitment

2007-10-10T04:43:00.000-07:00

My formula of finding someone,
Is calculate his presence before hand,
Draw his image in my mind,
Mathematically, in any moment he will come...

All I have to do is close my eyes,
Where deep within he resides,
So, what if he is imaginary one,
At least I have a perfect man,

Also, I could create as many as I can,
And remove all of them when I am done...
You see, someone real is hard to find...
And I could only offer zero time,

(There, I answered your question...you know, the bet still on...)

It Is Not Possible

2007-10-08T20:21:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time,
I saw a smile that shines,
The eyes that always meet mine,
With a face I longing to find,
And for the first time...
I met a man that was so kind...

The man that I once love,
The one who made me laugh,
Who wipes the tears on my eyes,
My loneliness he hides,
Opened the door of heaven for me,
And showed treasures of love for me to see...

Yes, once upon a time,
When I once love a man,
When I thought, his words were mine...
when I thought, I was the only one in his mind...
Sadly, he gave his heart also to another woman...
"Goodbye" was my last word to the man I once loved...once upon a time...

The Words

2007-10-07T19:06:00.000-07:00

Your cries everynight,
Is killing me inside,
Whenever you are in pain,
Poison flows throughout my veins,
I hand you all my love,
And everything even my life,
If you only know,
No one else I wanted but you...

Forgive me for leaving you,
Believe me...I am missing you too,
Have faith and be patient sweetheart,
Together again we will be my love,
Would you make a promise sweetheart?
Please me not to cry tonight,
Believe me, I am keeping you in heart and mind...
Sweetheart, even from beyond...you still mine..

Misunderstanding

2007-10-04T20:07:00.000-07:00

If you could only look at me in the eye,
You will see that my heart will never lie,
If you could only hear the words I say,
you will see that I am here to stay,
If you could only see my tears for you,
You will know that you are hurting me so,
If you could only look behind,
You will see that I am reaching you with my hand,
How could you be so deaf and blind...
...And completely forgotten who I am...

The Pawn

2007-10-02T21:21:00.000-07:00

Who is she in your life?
I wonder about her once in awhile,
And her name you should forget by now,
But quite often you mentioned somehow...

A promised words,
That was once I came accross,
"I will lost without.." as you told,
With those words, my heart was sold..

Chess is your favorite game,
Sacrifice all the pieces just to win,
On her expense, you were thinking,
...of winning everything...

"She still calls me..." you said,
"Even I told her I love you not her..." you said,
Threathen by her, I took your heart...
But I just realized how foolish it was...

Your intention I now clearly see...
How long this game is going to be?
Certainly, it will be over soon,
For I am no longer afraid to be alone..

Running Away

2007-09-30T22:05:00.000-07:00

Who is the one?
Is it the gentle, sincere, quiet man?
Is it the gorgeous, obnoxious one?
Or is the matured, confident, intelligent one?

Who will be the one?
To be there for me even when I not around,
Whose heart is only for me and not for everyone,
And to love me no matter who I am...

Who should I choose?
Niether one, I deadfully wanted not to loose...
The truth?...my heart belongs to each one of them,
My feelings I am so, so certain...

My heart, three of them, was taken...
The word love will never again spoken,
Disappeared, vanished in silence...
Facing new life...new future...full of prentence...

To My Beloved One

2007-09-29T21:43:00.000-07:00

All the beutiful things I love,
You took it away from the very start,
I gave you all my love,
And to you, it was not enough...

You took every air I breath,
Left me suffocated,
Then ripped my heart apart,
And owning everything I have...

Imprisoned by your presence,
You ignored my existance,
Took my heart and mind,
Determined to be not mine...

And last night...just night,
You mentioned about love...
Then you reached and kissed my hand,
Waited for my words...but I had none...

To my dearest some,
My one and only one,
By now I am far and gone,
And the journey of my life had finally began...

The Inevitable

2007-09-27T21:27:00.000-07:00

What if you could see your future,
Do you see me as yours?
What if you could change everything,
Would you put our love to short end...?

Oh, I am thinking such nonesense again,
Feeling so insecure when I am in pain,
Perhaps I should not think of such thing as love,
Why should I worry about tomorrow while today is only I have...

What if I could see the future?
Definitely I see myself as yours,
What if I could change everything?
Absolutely everything! Except I am keeping you my darling...

Hmmm...as usual you are late again,
You drive me insane quite often...
The wait is too much for me my darling,
Goodbye forever...I am tired waiting...

Yes, I Do Love You

2007-09-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

Then again you asked,
If our love will last,
Instead, I held your hands so tight...
And gave you a kiss from my the heart...

Your lips were hot,
I was burned with love,
Then, suddenly the world stop...
When my body felt you on top...

I was floating endlessly,
Feeling every movement of the sea,
As the water flows slowly and rapidly,
The beautiful night sky I could no longer see...

Lost in time and place,
All I saw was your face,
You cried with love so softly,
And whispered my name continually...

I found myself on my knee,
Kissing you tenderly,
Your groaned...your cried,
Could be heard from sky high above...

You were floating endlessly,
Feeling every movement of the sea,
As I gave you my love fast and slow,
By now, you should know how much I love you...

Thinking of You

2007-09-24T21:44:00.001-07:00

While dyingly waiting for the change of season,
The written words were forgotten,
As the color of promises disappeared,
One lonely heart buried in tears...

Missing You Always

2007-09-23T20:11:00.000-07:00

Do not ask where I have been,
You think the worst of me again and again,
What if I tell you not a single thing,
Would you still love me inspite of everything...

In the cold dark night,
Sadness embrances my heart,
Without you in my side,
I felt...my heart died...

Whether you believe it or not,
My lips speaks the truth my love,
And today is only day we have,
Come closer...give me a kiss and a hug...

There Will Be Another Day

2007-09-17T21:28:00.000-07:00

Are you leaving?
Where are you going?
I thought we had an understanding?
That I will drive you home tomorrow morning?

Why are your clothes packed?
Are you leaving me and not coming back?
Don't just stand there...
Please close the door and come over here...

Are you still mad at me because of her?
You know that you are the only one I care!
Don't just stand there please,
Come closer and let us talk this over...

So, why are you leaving me?
Will you tell me who is he?
Nothing to worry about my feeling for you,
I love you and only you...

Let us not have another fight,
Please stay with me tonight,
No! Put your those things down, please!
Would you please talk to me? How about a kiss...?

How Can I Tell You

2007-09-16T20:47:00.000-07:00

Your picture is mine,
Something to keep you in mind,
Oh, this shirt smell like you,
So I am taking it too...

One last kiss for you love,
And a better life I wish for you to have,
I am feeling the pain more and more,
As I get closer and closer to the door...

Promise me not to be so, so sad...
When you find me gone when you wake up my love,
Sorry for all the pain I will caused you,
Sweetheart, I must to go...

The Day After

2007-09-15T20:23:00.000-07:00

My words comes later,
Holding you is what matters,
Your touch is all desire,
Please, let me feel your fire...

Hold me tight,
Let me feel your passion tonight,
Bathe me with kisses,
Leave my heart breatheless...

Your silent scream so pleasant,
I lost in your arms every moment,
My love is for you... forever,
Forget you? Never...

Only You

2007-09-14T20:35:00.000-07:00

Oh, you are so fine,
And absolutely have beautiful mind,
How can you be mine,
When you continue to be blind...

You know how much I care,
And all you give me is a stare,
But as I push you far back,
Your feelings reveal and you never hold it back...

You tell me what should I do,
To win your heart and be with you,
If you only think of me once in a while...
...you will completely make my heart smile...

Going Round And Round

2007-09-12T21:05:00.000-07:00

I am what you see,
Nothing more infront of you except of me,
And I asked you, "Do you believe me?"
You said, "yes..." unconvincedly...

Will I open my heart to you?
Do I have feelings towards you too?
Honestly, I barely know you...
And once again my answer is no...

You said, "Yes"... I said, "No"
Then, you looked at me and asked, "Who are you?"
Does it matter who I am?
A portrait of me I have none...

My Old Fashion Way

2007-09-09T20:39:00.000-07:00

You are extremely funny,
I truthfully love your company,
You insure your smile that always mine,
Honestly, you treated me just fine...

Not only you are hilarious,
You are also incredibly gorgeous,
My heart melts when I am with you,
Could you not see my feeling through...?

The real of you is all I want,
Heavenly when we were holding hand,
Your potent charm still I could not comprehend,
But the walk lastnight was quite pleasant...

Inspite of how you and I feel toward each other,
I think we could not be intimately together,
Your belief is very different than mine,
Unlike you...I could only love and be with someone one at a time...

Forever Love

2007-09-06T21:08:00.000-07:00

As I lay down on the bed,
It is only you inside my head,
Not a single tears I shed,
Knowing what lies ahead...

As I drift into the world of dreams,
A joy my heart screams,
Nothing compare being with you,
Even the world of untrue...

As I gradually open my eyes,
Looking at the picture of you and I,
You have been long gone,
But in dreams, us holding hand in hand...

One Day At A Time

2007-09-02T22:26:00.000-07:00

Obviously, I can see...
You no longer love me,
Life could be so lonely,
Without you, my world seems so empty...

Happy?...how can you be?
When she prefer not you but somebody,
All I wish for you is to be happy,
Seeing you unhappy is hurting me...

I love you, you love her...
And she loves another,
How cruel life without you,
I know you are feeling what I am feeling too...

Tomorrow is another day,
I will not look back to our yesterday,
All memories of you is buried in my heart,
And with an open arms I am ready for a new start...

I love You The Way You Are

2007-08-31T20:45:00.000-07:00

Your voice is like thunder,
While your touch is so tender,
With your blazing eyes,
Melts the heart cold as ice,
And you fly so, so high...
But never attempt to touch the sky,
With your hidden smile,
And with your cry is a moment worthwhile...

I Found You

2007-08-30T20:24:00.000-07:00

As I looked around,
My heart almost drown,
Bouquet of flowers,
Sweet fragrance everywhere,
Seeing a picture of us,
Reminds me of unbroken promise of the past...

As I looked at you,
I knew that my heart belongs to only you,
The smile on your face,
I saw true love that could not be replaced,
Waiting for me with a opened arms,
My heart fell into the heaven's charm...

As you kissed me,
I was on tears endlessly,
For I knew in my heart,
Forever we will never be apart,
You held my hand so tight,
A promised that your heart stays with me everynight...

Sweet Goodbye

2007-08-29T20:53:00.000-07:00

Perhaps you might not understand,
Why I must let you find another one,
But certainly I am not mistaken,
That our relationship is full of pretence...

The eyes are the window of the soul,
And loving you I feel such a fool,
In your eyes I see the real you,
Your intentions for me are so untrue...

Do not tell me about love,
That is one thing you never have,
How could you say you are losing something,
When you do not have it from the very beginning...

The Beginning

2007-08-27T21:20:00.000-07:00

You are too old,
And I am too young I was told,
What do they know about love,
They never experience what we have...

Age does not matter,
For me there is no other,
You and only your for me,
The only man who makes me happy...

Love is blind,
As many defined,
Regardless what they say,
I am here for you to stay...

Behind His Sweet Smile

2007-08-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

Your cold eyes cries,
And you speaks countless lies,
Even your deceptions is an infinite stride,
Your destination has finally arrive...

The chances you always have,
I have forgiven so many times my love...
But if you think coming back,
You definitely have no longer luck...

Say no more words,
You no longer belong to my world,
No need to show me your cries,
Goodbye to you my cold eyes...

Promise I Will Be On Time

2007-08-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

Who is your date tonight?
Wow! You finally see the light,
Light at the end of the tunnel?
Oh, you take my joke so well...

Seriously, this evening...
Will she gives you everything?
Does she has passion as I?
Obviously, I see love in your eyes...

Why are you giving me that smile?
So, you will let me guess for a while?
Quit giving that smile! or else...
Or else your date will be replaced....

The Wait

2007-08-24T21:46:00.000-07:00

It is your voice I hear when he calls my name,
It is you I see everytime I look at him,
In so many ways is true,
That he will be always you...

"I will never ever leave you," often you say...
But those words suddenly I did not heard one day...
You vanished without saying goodbye...
And left behind my broken heart to die...

Then he came along in my life,
It is he who keeps me alive,
Hunted by the ghost of true love, on his shoulder I hide...
But not worry my love soon I will find happiness when I rest by your side...

The Reality

2007-08-23T21:53:00.000-07:00

Seeing once again that familiar place,
And that handsome face,
Hearing that soft voice,
Feeling unforgetable touch,
And that increadible kiss,
The place I had left behind,
The only place for you and I,
I must be dreaming again...
Our life, together is only in a dream...

Insanely Crazy

2007-08-22T23:57:00.000-07:00

Chips, pop corn, chocolate and soda,
Including triple layered pizza,
Pillows for me, sheets for you,
Tonight, you and I will try something new...

Call me crazy, I call you insane,
This evening one of us will be put to shame,
Here is one for me and here is one for you,
Tonight, we will find who is who...

You go first and I go second,
See how you handle the humiliation,
I know already how bad I am,
See who is the worst this time?

I guess you can lay down next to me,
Go ahead give it to me and let me see,
Wow, I could not believe yours is that long,
I thought we agreed to only write a short poem...?

Moment of Fantasy

2007-08-21T22:35:00.001-07:00

Poems you have written,
I read them so often,
Words you have found on the sand,
From a place where I could not reach by hand...

The soft, gentle wave gracefully played...
While rainbow of life gradually faded away,
Along with your words it disappeared,
Washed away as I followed the shadow of fear...

Poems you have written,
Captured my heart moment by moment,
I read them so often,
Hoping my world will be awaken once again...

Forever Goodbye

2007-08-20T21:52:00.000-07:00

Now and then I think of you,
And the words you have promised you will do,
To walk far, far away from me...
And forget me completely...

Sometimes I looked up to the blue sky,
Perhaps hoping to see again your gorgeous eyes,
From time to time I played our favorite songs,
Only to remind myself that you have been gone so long...

Just like you...I walked away and promised not to look back,
Run away to every moments of our past,
And just like you..I gave you my word,
To learned to move on even with shattered world...

Ocassionaly, I looked at the pictures of you and I,
And my heart's beat stop and forever cried,
Once upon a time there was the story of us,
Now, it is just a momeries of the our past...

From time to time ...I wish...I hope...
Oh, how long this loneliness I have to cope...
...my love, as I promise you too...
...never ever will I again think of you...