The Cycle

Here we are again,
...trouble always our game...

You lied for me... I lied for you,
...promised it will be the last game for me and you...

Playing someones feelings,
at the end... only guilty feelings will bring...

Here we are again,
trouble always our game...

You lied for me... I lied for you,
...promised this will be the last game for me and you...

It is like a game of chess,
...the "heartless one" win... will be the "best"...

Life

Our destination in life is unknown,
The map of life is not our own,

We, part of the life's infinite chaotic cycle,
So many variable; so unpredictable,

The game of life continue to play,
Unexpected challenges dictates who will stay,

It is impersonal;...whether we lose or win...
...the game of life continue to spin...

Living In A Dream

Beautiful thoughts for you as yours for me,
I have not forgotten you as you with me,

Overwhelmed with joy for what you did that day,
That day...when my world seems fading away,

You always try to be there for me,
Such devotions...such courage...how long is going to be?

Contemplating if I should open the door for you as you tried for me,
Sadly, I was back to reality; you only exist in my dream...can't you see?

Good Morning Sweetheart

Waking up next to you from a long deep sleep,
Us, once again created a life time memory worth to keep,

You waited for me so long;
Now...I know where my heart;where my heart belong,

The time stop...just for us,
Cherish every moment while it last,

In you arms I found true love,
Your heart...I wish forever...I wish to have...

All I Wanted is to be With You

Your eyes full of questions,
You wanted to hear my explainations,

"Why did you disappear all of sudden?" you asked,
I looked at you and said,"I was not gone long;Aren't you glad I back?"

Unwillingly you smiled,
You held me in your arms so tight,

"Why you did not tell me where you going?" you asked again,
"Why, are you getting tired of me...?" you asked again and again,

"Sweatheart, if you listen and I will explain..." I said,
I sat on you lap...too many things still remained unsaid,

"I can see it in your eyes; no need to explain" you whisphered,
"All I wanted is you back in my life again..." you said again and again,

You stared at me too long then kissed me,
Your true love shows; certainly, with you I wanted to be...

Always Thinking of You

The stars appeared tonight,
Turning the dark sky...so bright,

Looking up...thinking of you,
Are you thinking of me too?

The moonlight guided me home,
Sweetheart...I will be with you very soon...

The Last Goodbye

Thinking of you every night; I cried,
I cried and cried until my tears dried,

When will these loneliness end?
Everyday you caused me so much pain,

I wanted to let you go,
But my feelings only belongs to you,

day by day I struggle to stay alive,
Alone I will survive,

Let me take life on my own term,
Challenges of life... I have so much to learn...

Reality or Illusion

Living in confusion,
Choosing reality or illusion,

Which path to choose,
Sanity almost certainly to lose,

The undefined prevails,
The undiscoved reveals,

Deep into the subconscious,
Finding the answers in the minds of the curious.

To A Friend

You are Humble, kind, and gentle,
Many beautiful words for you I failed to tell,

Thoughts of you I have to push aside once in a while,
But I could not stop thinking about you; your jokes and sincere smile,

Could you hear when I say I love you? Could you see how how I care for you?
Too late now to tell you all these things; My dearest friend I missed you so...

Please forgive me for not being there when you needed someone by your side,
I wished you find true happiness on the other side...

Why

Why did you do it?
Searching love to replace the lost one?...you sought so desparate,

Why did you do it?
No one to love? What about me; I have so much for you to give,

Why did you do it?
You think your life has no meaning after she left?

Why did you do it?
In your amazing world she does not belong; she does not fit,

Why did you do it?
Not realized you have a wonderful life ahead; if only you had waited,

Why did you do it?
The game of life...you ended it so fast; so quick...

...you always have place in my heart...
...I will miss you Pete... [1965(?)-2006]

The Visit

I saw you once again,
Impossible! Oh, my head hurts...things I could not explain,

Seeing you...so unbelievable!
You never age...so remarkable!

You were in tears; I asked why,
You looked at me; your eyes wanting to say goodbye,

I begged you to stay,
You did not answer.... instead you stared at me; nothing to say,

I kept asking is this reality?
Certainly...only in a dream would I see your immortality,

"Why you waited so long to see me...? I asked,
"...I could not find my way back to you..." you said; with voice so sad,

"You know... this a dream..." with trembling voice I continued,
"I am always with you...now, I must go..." you said; full of sorrow,

I cried and begged for you...once again to stay,
But you vanished before my eyes; you did not hear what I have to say,

I felt a reaccuring pain deep in my heart; it hurts once again,
Woke up crying in the middle of the night; feeling Lonely and empty I must refrain...

For I know... soon my world disappear from its existance,
And when the time comes, you will be waiting for me in not far away distance...

Fear

The Darkness came,
Frighten...she called his name,

But only silence echoed,
And the emptyness...she followed,

The night was so cold,
Scared...she had no one to hold,

Blinded by darkness...she could not see,
A walk away...there was He...

The First Time We Met

I pretended not looking at you,
but too late you already knew,

You looked at me back,
and for a second, I do not know how to react,

I Pretended I did not see you looking at me,
But to my surprised...you already started walking towards me,

You gave me the sweetest smile as you getting closer,
And then I could not remember anything after,

Then, I heard you said "Hi",
I was so shy; I wanted to say goodbye,

Suddently, I felt your hand holding mine,
Oh my god! That moment...I completely lost my mind!

A Friend

You and I together,
a friendship I wish will last forever...

You might not be around,
to comfort me when I am down...

But acknowledging my existance,
it gives me a sense of importance...

The Man Behind the Mask

His flattering words and contagious smile,
He could take a womans heart and put to exile,

His display of affection and compassion,
He could take a woman's heart; change her world with wrong intention,

His lies... not once, not twice but million lies,
And the reality he ignores and denies,

His eyes shows no truth;
As his heart reveals of lost youth,

His heart will never ever be for new one,
For his heart already belong to special someone,

For his heart died with her a long long time ago,
His heart full of sorrow; without that someone... his heart remains hollow...

One Summer Day

The man with golden wavy hair,
His voice, I love to hear...

The man with sweetest smile,
His blue eye staring at me...oh, I would die,

The man with bigger heart than mine,
His thoughts and feelings...oh, he is one of a kind,

The man with so much love to offer,
Ironically, He and I found each other...

Broken Heart

The door of heart opened,
Frozen memories awaken,

Humble soul awaits,
Creating existance with faith,

Sad face faded away,
Captured time; each moment...each day,

...a kiss from heaven,
The door of humble's heart closed once again...

The Beauty

With you I wanted to be,
wonderful love from me, for you to see...

Since you already gone,
What is left of us...is you...in my heart and mind...

Goodbye my precious one...
my love...my one and only one...

One Summer Night

Feeling the cool breeze in summer night,
having thought of "you and I" together; tonight,

Gazing on the pale moon,
having thought of "us" together soon,

Thinking of the past; memories of "us",
having thought of you coming back; you must...

Dreaming of you; no one else but you,
for my heart truely... is for you,

Waking you up in a long, long deep sleep,
but you continue to stare the sky with eyes closed instead...

The Blind Man's Mind

The shadow of time gradually falling behind,
The unknown world of mind; blind man's wish to find,

Chasing until dawn; quest of the unknown,
ambiguity before the beginning was born,

Twilight full of despair while darkness plays,
Plague of fear of the unknown is on its way,

In Child's mind knowledge resides,
In blind man's mind the unknown hides,

The shadow of time,
Only exist... in the blind man's mind,

Feeling Guilty

I should be celebrating tonight,
Perfect score on my final exam tonight...

I should be overwhelm with joy,
But emptyness and sadness I felt inside; Not joy...

I hate being compassionate with others...
I hate feel sad for others...

Maybe if they study harder Like I did...
Maybe if...Ah, I hate being human...

Anyway, would you like a cup of coffee?
Lets talk about our struggles in class; tonight are you free?

When the Wind Blows

I come here, where you rest, quite often...
...Try to be with once you again...

Selfishly you walked away,
Without saying goodbye,

You left me heartbroken,
and tormented to what happened,

Took away all your love from me,
Perhaps now, you are happy,

I could no longer touch you,
Nor could I ever feel you,

Forever you rest,
Into infinite coldness and darkness,

...I come here, where you rest, quite often...
...try to be with once you again...

Broken Promise

Sincere and honest love he offers,
his forever love just for me and not for others.

Precious moments with him I fear,
the chances of discovering whose heart I keep so dear.

Everytime he whispers... "I love you",
the first thing comes to mind is you.

Quiet Moment With You

How was work? Tired?
Get in quick...it is too cold outside,

Come closer sweetheart; Let me take off you coat,
Sit down, allow me to remove your shoes,

I will get pillows for your back,
Just lay on the couch and relax,

How about lay down on your stomach,
I will be on your back; I will give you a massage,

Or perhaps you want somethings else,
Would you like to play a game? If you win, you will get the best again...

Gone Forever

I searched; I searched and I searched,
Worried I lost it; my heart started to hurt,

When I saw it the first time,
Alluring; Glad it became mine,

With dark blue all around it,
on top painted with a flower...so delicate,

Everytime I hear its mystical sound,
It reminds me of someone lost forever; completely gone,

Inside it, cherished momeries of he and I,
In the jewelry box our hearts will never say goodbye,

I searched; I searched and I searched,
Did I lost it? my heart started to hurt,

I searched... I searched...
In tears, I continued to search....

Lost With You

What a strange dream I had;
Earthquake and storm, I felt last night,

Endless struggle all through the night,
Feeling all my senses; what a stormy night...

The struggle I begged to stay,
With unticipaticipation; breathless, nothing to say...

Enduring pleasure and pain,
Oh, you and I; exploring each other once again in a dream...

The Fire in the Cold Night

Winter arrived into the night,
darkness turned bright;everything turned white,

Cold air crept on my bed,
layers of thick blankets;I covered myself,

The freezing temperature continued to fall,
Ice formed all over the bedroom wall,

Finally, I fell asleep; dream took me to a hot place,
burning air touches my face;my lips,

It felt so good;it felt just right, then suddenly, I woke up...
I saw you "face to face" with burning desire;I felt it throughtout night,

It felt so good; it felt just right,
created fire, you and I, into the cold freezing night...